#ALSO THE FACT THAT JAY'S NAME IS WHAT MADE HER REMEMBER HERSELF. im gonna go cry for a year

[jinxed-ninjago]

Honestly, I love The Call of Home. We have someone who's been merged with the sea for millenia and someone who's been merged with the sea for a year, and the differences are so interesting to me. Nyad just exists; her morals are weird and amount to "nature is nature, and we can't do anything to change that" because she's lost herself. When Nya explains why she saved the sailor, her response is "That's just how things are, there isn't any right or wrong." Nya doesn't remember who she is, but she's retained her morals, and when Nyad asks about it, Nya's response is "Because it was the right thing to do." Nya's memory is at least partially intact, Nyad's isn't.

It creates a really interesting dynamic where we're shown what will happen to Nya if she stays merged with the sea. The entire conversation between Nyad and Nya is fascinating to me. It also makes me wonder how long Nya would've had to be merged with the sea to completely lose herself like Nyad did. After a year Nya still has her morals and a fundamental understanding that her morals are who she is, but she can't really identify who she is because her memory is intact, but not completely.

I don't think this dynamic between Nya and Nyad was done by accident either. I very much think it was done on purpose to show the consequences of what can happen after someone merges with the sea and basically tell us, the viewers, that if Nya stays merged with the sea, this is what will happen to her, and there's a high chance that it'll be too late to save her from that. Since her memories are at least partially intact, it's not too late yet. She still has time to be saved. For Nyad it's too late; not just does she have no sense of self besides that she's merged with the sea, but there's nobody around to bring her memory back like Nya has.

It's really interesting and I'm surprised I haven't seen it discussed at all.

[chicagopd2020]

New Beginnings Are Good For Everyone!!!! Ch.2

Jay walked into the bullpin the next day with a smile on his face, a smile that hasnt been on his face in a long time & he missed it. He notices the guys sitting at their desks so he made his way toward them.

Hey guys!

Well isnt someone in a chipper mood today, im guess that means that the date went pretty good last night? Ask Adam

Oh no...There wasnt a date at all because she decided not to show up.

Then why are you in such a great mood if you got stood up? Kevin asked him confused

The reason that i am in a good mood is because of me being stood up last night i just decided that i would go to the bar in the resturant and get drunk but i ended up meeting a woman who was in town for business and we just had a great talk and by the time that she left to go back to her room my mind had been taken off the fact that i had been stood up. It didnt really matter to me at the point.

Oh so did you happen to get this womans name?

I did but i know that i am probably never going to see her again....so i am not telling you her name im just gonna know that i enjoyed her company last night.

So what did you talk about? Adam questioned

It was just a general conversation. Nothing deep, but as she walked away to head back up to her room I just couldnt help but to look back & I am glad that I did because when I did I she must have also had the same feeling because she was looking right back at me..

who knows maybe you just found the girl that could exactly what you need? Says Kevin

Well if he ever sees her again......Stated Adam

*Kim*

Saying that she was nervous about this interview today is understatment, she couldnt think straight she was never this nervous about anything but she wanted this spot really bad. She was trying to remind herself to just be her, that what she had done in the past for her job would show them that she was a great choice for this. As she looked herself over one more time in the mirror she decided to head out a little early so she could get some coffee before heading over to the precinct.

She was standing at the bottom of the steps, right before she enters she takes a deep breath and tells herself "You got this". She walks to the front desk and she sees a lady standing there who must be over everything so she walks up to the lady confidently.

Can I help you Ms? Ask the desk Sargent

Yes ma'am I am here for a meeting or interview with a Sargent Hank Voight. Kim states

Can I get your name so I can inform him that you are here?

My name is Kim Burgess ma'am

Ok Ms. Burgess if I could get you to have a sit on the bench I am sure that he will be down with you momentarily.

Ok thank you, she looks at the badge Sargent Platt

She sits paitently yet anxiously, thinking over the things that could possibly be ask and the answers that she would give him. As she is sit there lost in thought she hears the cage door slam and brings her out of her thoughts. She stands as she sees a man walking in her direction.

Hello Agent Burgess I am Sargent Voight. Its nice to meet you Erin has told me so much about you.

Hello Sargent Voight its so nice to meet you. Likewise she told me great things about you.

Lets head upstairs so that we can talk a little bit more. He heads toward the cage as he opens the door he motions for you to head in, you both walk up the stairs carrying on the small conversation on how Erin is. As you make it to the top of the steps you notice the team is fast at work on whatever their case is today. You scan the room and notice there are 5 people, 4 men and 1 woman. You walk to the office quietly not really paying attention to the faces of the team.

As she enters the office she takes the first seat available & Sargent Voight takes the seat opposite of you behind the desk. The conversation flowed like you had known each other for years and every question he asked you, you answered the question the best way that you knew how to. By the end of it you both somehow ended up laughing and you dont exactly remember how that happened.

So Kim if you were given the position would you be willing to take our detective exam?

Yes I would have no problem doing taking the exam. I know things are run differently here then what I am used to but I am willing the learn the way that you run your things down here.

With everything being said Agent Kim Burgess I would formally like to offer you the open spot that I have here in the Intelligence Unit if you would like to take it.

Yes I would be honored to join Intelligence. She said with a huge smile plastered on her face.

I know that you are going to need about a week to get everything settled in Washington and get back down here so i will see you next Monday Kim

Thank you so much for this opportunity Sargent Voight. She stands extending her hand. Come on I will introduce you to the rest of the team.

As they walk out the door she notices all eyes are looking in their direction. Hank starts to speak

Ok team I would like you all to welcome our newest member to the Intelligence Unit Agent Kim Bugess. She will be taking the detective exam when she returns from Washington, she is coming to us from the FBI.

Everyone makes their way up to her starting to introduce theirself starting with the only woman on the team

Hi I am Detective Hailey Upton, Its going to be nice to finally have another female around here,

Hi Detective Upton it is so nice to meet you. May have to have you to show me the ropes around here.

I will be more than happy to do that. She smiles knowing that they will be good friends

Then two guys walk up to you.

Hi I am Officer Adam Ruzek & this is officer Kevin Attwater

Hi it is very nice to meet the both of you and I cant wait to work with everyone here. It seems like a big family here.

A dysfunctional family but we are family. You all share a small laugh.

Then an older gentleman walks  up to you and you can tell that he has been doing this for a long time.

Hello Agent Burgess I am Dectective Olinsky.

Nice to meet you Dectective Olinsky.

May I ask you a question? Ask Olinsky

Sure ask anything

Why would someone want to move from the FBI down to a unit like Intelligence?

I have been with the FBI for almost 5 years and there is just times that its just to much for me. I have always wanted to work in a smaller team of people like here in Intelligence, so when a friend offered to try and get me an interview with Sargent Voight I could turn the chance down.

I can understand that. Well welcome to the team and I cant wait to see what you bring to the team.

Thank you Detective

Lastily there was one more team member that you hadnt met yet as you turn around to make your way to his desk he looks up at you with a small smile. He stands up leaning against the edge of his desk.

Well,well hello there stranger

Hey, honestly have to say didnt think that I was going to ever see you again

I guess the world works in mysterious ways Kim

I guess it does.

Now this way i think we might be able to have a little bit better conversation, since both of us are in better spirits.

Most definetly. Well I guess that i better get going so I can get everything taken care of back home and find a place here before start work next monday. It was nice seeing you again Jay.

Kim says her finally byes and as she is leaving the unit she does one final look back and just like last night their eyes lock right before she dissapears.

This was going to be everything she hoped it would and more..

Her new life was about to begin and she had never been more happy about anything in her entire life.......

[kittybriar]

Hey y’all! I’m Jay, resident gay boi. ( he/they | 23 | est ) I’m so glad that I get to play my bratty little Veruca Salt once again. You can, of course pop into my tumblr ims or you can message me on discord ( ♡ earl grey goose#3410 ♡ ) Below the cut you’ll find some really quick facts about Kitty. Her bio is here which does contain some trigger warnings which are listed at the top. The triggers present in this lil blurb are: substance abuse, adultery/cheating, and alcohol abuse.

BIG FACTS, BIG FACTS:

Kitty was basically her mother’s last chance at trying to make the affair that she was having into something more but! Surprise! Cheating men aren’t empathetic. So he dipped out on them which basically set the tone for their mother daughter relationship.  

Kitty and her mother have never really bonded, they’ve always been more like roommates rather than mother and daughter. All her mom sees when she looks at Kitty is the mistake she made by being with a married man. Plus, Kitty is like the combination of the worst parts of her mother and father and that’s super yikes for her mom.

Growing up, Kitty would always ask about her dad, like ��uh sis where is my dad he’s gotta be around here somewhere, show me the loot.” But her mother wasn’t having it and it only pushed them further apart.

Her mom got remarried during Kitty’s freshman year of high school to a “rich” guy named Paul Edwards. Paul is just as basic and corny as you can imagine but hey, he’s got gold coins to match those yellow teeth of his. They get married, Kitty and her mom move from their small house in Midtown to a bigger house in Villas Adobes, and they have Kitty’s little brother Wesley. By this point, Kitty is just so over her mother’s bs that she just starts doing whatever she wants and she gets away with it for the most part.

During her teens, she starts to get wild™. She starts hanging around girls who are pretty much just like her (girls with aloof parents and nothing to do but party and get drunk/high) so they become a kind of staple around Boot Hill. They spend their afternoons getting high, drinking, shopping, fucking, complaining about their parents, building houses out of Popsicle sticks, the usual. Every party, every kickback, every Bat Mitzvah, you can bet Kitty and the gang are there.

Kitty probably drinks more than her liver can actually handle. She’s an incipient alcoholic and her worst impulses are never checked. 

All she knows how to do is use people, lbr. She uses them, makes them believe that she cares by showing them a lot of affection and then kicks them to the curb once she’s done.

She almost never introduces herself as Katherine. It’s always Kitty. Some people don’t even know that her name was Katherine and that’s basically how she likes it.

She’s… not a nice girl, and neither are her friends. She wasn’t raised spoiled, but with a stepdad that’s not struggling??? You can bet she learned how to be spoiled. She’s just very selfish, very blunt, very manipulative, very ( this Naomi Campbell meme ). She’s also flirtatious and uses guys and girls ( we love a pioneer of 20biteen) like tissues. She can’t really be bothered to have a real relationship with anything except her eyebrow pencil.

She graduates and…she realizes that she’s pretty much done nothing worth noting. Sure, she could tie a cherry stem with her tongue and blow smoke rings but that resume? BLANK. She kind of just shrugs her shoulders and owns it. People are always telling her she can do more but??? Why do more when you can just keep going the way that you’re going? Plus, Boot Hill is her home and she has no real desire to leave it.

She starts working at the Painted Sky Boutique once her mom and stepdad end her allowance. It’s fine for her mom to live the high life drinking boxed wine on a pool chair in the backyard but not her. OH WELL. It’s a pretty cool job, nothing really crazy happens unless you come in and pick up a shirt but don’t fold it back the way you found it. You’ll  also get dragged if you come up in that store, try on a bunch of stuff without buying anything.

And now she’s just floating. With no real look into the future she’s just a high school graduate who’s spending most of her time being young and doing whatever she wants..

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

( i. BEST FRIENDS ) Uh, hello! Be my dorter’s friend, I’ll pay you to hang out with her! No, but seriously, these could be the girls she’s been close with since her freshman year of high school. They tell each other everything, they get high together, they’ve probably done other things together, but we’re all ladies here so we don’t talk about that. But, this could also be people she’s met and likes to be around, lmao. They hang out, they give each other advice ( her advice is always fight them no matter what the problem is ). Just come and let my child be nice to you.

( ii. FRENEMIES/ENEMIES ) Okay! So! I love the idea of Kitty having just a ton of enemies or frenemies. All this girl does is piss people off so this could truly be anyone. A former teacher? Enemy. Someone who hated her in school? Enemy. Someone who thought they were better than her? Enemy. Got into a fist fight behind the bleachers that one time in tenth grade? Enemy. Said she was gonna pay for drinks that night but dipped before the bill came? ENEMY.

( iiI. EXES ) So, remember when I said this heaux can’t be bothered with a relationship? Turns out she’s had several and they’ve all sucked ( Largely bc of her being so self involved. ) Whether they’ve ended on a good note or bad note? We can decide!

[kittybriar-a]

Why did the golfer bring two pairs of pants? In case he got a hole in one! ( Whew, don’t drag me. )

Hey y’all! I’m Jay ( he/they | 22 | est ) and I’m v happy to be here?? I’m really gagged that I was able to submit my app before it was too late. I’m so glad that I get to bring my angry little sour cherry here to write with you guys and I can’t wait to get to know all of the kids so that I can PLOT WITH ALL OF YOU. You can, of course pop into my tumblr ims or you can message me on discord ( shallowhottie#3410 ) Below you’ll find some really quick facts about my dorter Kitty. Her bio is here which does contain some trigger warnings which are listed at the top. The triggers present in this lil blurb are: substance abuse, adultery/cheating, and alcohol abuse

Big facts, big facts:

Kitty was basically her mother’s last chance at trying to make the affair that she was having into something more but! Surprise! Cheating men aren’t empathetic, babe! So he dipped out on them which basically set the tone for their mother daughter relationship.  

Kitty and her mother have never really bonded, they’ve always been more like roommates rather than mother and daughter. All her mom sees when she looks at Kitty is the mistake she made by being with a married man. Plus, Kitty is like the combination of the worst parts of her mother and father and that’s super yikes for her mom.

Growing up, Kitty would always ask about her dad, like “uh sis where is my dad he’s gotta be around her somewhere, show me the loot.” But her mother wasn’t having it and it only pushed them further apart. 

Her mom got remarried during Kitty’s freshman year of high school to a “rich” guy named Paul Edwards. Paul is just as basic and corny as you can imagine but hey, he’s got some coin. They get married, Kitty and her mom move from their small house in Midtown to a bigger house in Villas Adobes, and they have Kitty’s little sister Delilah. By this point, Kitty is just so over her mother’s bs that she just starts doing whatever she wants and she gets away with it for the most part. 

During her teens, she starts to get wild™. She starts hanging around girls who are pretty much just like her (Aloof parents, nothing to do but party and get drunk/high) so they become a kind of staple around Boot Hill. They spend their afternoons getting high, drinking, shopping online, complaining about their parents, building houses out of Popsicle sticks, the usual. Every party, every kickback, every Bat Mitzvah, you can bet Kitty and the gang are there. 

She almost never introduces herself as Katherine. It’s always Kitty. Some people didn’t even know that her name was Katherine and that’s basically how she likes it. 

She’s... not a nice girl, and neither are her friends. She wasn’t raised spoiled, but with a stepdad that’s not struggling??? You can bet she learned how to be spoiled. She’s just very snarky, very blunt, very manipulative, very ( this Naomi Campbell meme ). She’s also flirtatious and uses guys and girls ( we love a pioneer of 20biteen ) like tissues. She can’t really be bothered to have a real relationship with anything except her eyebrow pencil. 

She graduates and...she realizes that she’s pretty much done nothing worth noting. Sure, she could tie a cherry stem with her tongue and blow smoke rings but that resume? BLANK, MY GUY. She kind of just shrugs her shoulders and owns it. People are always telling her she can do more but??? Why do more when you can just keep going the way that you’re going?

She starts working at the Painted Sky Boutique once her mom and stepdad end her allowance. It’s fine for her mom to live the high life, but not her. OH WELL. It’s a pretty cool job, nothing really crazy happens unless you come in and pick up a shirt but don’t fold it back the way you found it. Oh, and I s2g you’ll get dragged if you come up in that store, try on a bunch of stuff without buying anything. Buy something! Help ya’ girl get paid.

And now she’s just floating. With no real look into the future she’s just a high school graduate who’s spending most of her time being young and doing whatever she wants which is a big o’l mood. 

Wanted connections:

( i. Best friends ) Uh, hello! Be my dorter’s friend, I’ll pay you to hang out with her! No, but seriously, these could be the girls she’s been close with since her freshman year of high school. They tell each other everything, they get high together, they’ve probably done other things together, but we’re ladies so we don’t talk about that. But, this could also be people she’s met and likes to be around, lmao. They hang out, they give each other advice ( her advice is always fight them no matter what the problem is ). Just come and let my child be nice to you. 

( ii. Frenemies/Enemies ) Okay! So! I love the idea of Kitty having just a ton of enemies or frenemies. All this girl does is piss people off so this could truly be anyone. A former teacher? Enemy. Someone who hated her in school? Enemy. Someone who thought they were better than her? Enemy. Got into a fist fight behind the bleachers that one time in tenth grade? Enemy. Said she was gonna pay for drinks that night but dipped before the bill came? ENEMY. 

( iiI. Exes ) So, remember when I said this heaux can’t be bothered with a relationship? Turns out she’s had several and they’ve all sucked ( Largely bc of her being so self involved. ) Whether they’ve ended on a good note or bad note? We can decide! 

That’s all I’ve got for right now, babes!

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #6: “LITTLE MISS MADISON said FUCK JACOB” -Kevin

*takes my numbers back and hisses at Stephen Vi and Timmy*

WHATS POPPING, this game thats whats popping ladies and gentlemen whew, to say the least that is. Considering my last confessional was like round 1, let me go ahead and fill you guys in on what you MISSED!! (from my perspective) We voted Tom, then Julia, then Kenny all unanimously which was meh, I liked Tom but he's very ruthless but I think I could've worked with him for a little but he just wasn't on so I couldn't do anything without risking my game, then theres Julia another person I liked and wanted to work with but her inactivity was gross and she made her own bed and she's kinda crazy so hopefully it was for the better, lastly in the string of unanimous votes we had KENNY I was ELATED to see him go, finally someone actually bad for my game left, we never talked and we did not have a good history so him staying would have sucked, then JG had to walk from the game which was.. something, personally for my situation that was great and while I hope everything is ok with him and his life I am not ashamed to say I was happy to have his presence in the game be gone, to be frank. THEN!!!!!!! things started to heat up! So going into the 4th tribal I was vulnerable for the FIRST time all game, and to make matters worse there was only 5 other people to choose from outside of myself, so that was really really shitty and I hated that feeling, luckily prior to the vote I found my way into 2 different alliances one being named the "fat five" consisting of myself, madeleine, jacob, ricky and andrew! this is a group i feel comfortable with for the time being and I trust, and then after that I was added to a chat with Joanna, Pat and Stephen which seems to be an alliance but is not properly named. I appreciate that my social ability has led me into 2 different completely non-overlapping alliances but it's also put me in the MIDDLE of those 2 alliances which seem to have different HOPES about where this game is going. So during the final 14 vote my name was brought up for what was told to me as a millisecond, a very short period of time that didn't really spark any fires in people to want to vote me out, I heard of this first through JOANNA, surprisingly she told me Stephen told her about it which was alarming to me because I liked Stephen and should he have heard my name I would have expected him to bring it to my attention, frankly he did NOT and in the midst of having a 1 in 6 shot of going home I was not going to rock the boat at all, so I bit my tongue and let the round play on and considered this something to be better addressed at a future time. So back to the actual VOTE the actual coming up of names I had no part in both Dylan and Brien were brought to me by the respective "sides" of the tribes if you will, with Dylan being Pat/Jo/Steves choice and Brien being Mad/And/Ric/Jac's choice both side were VERY intensely wanting their vote to go through (which is expected) but as everything unfolded I realized the kumbaya spirits that blessed the 3 tribals prior had seemingly left the building because me being vulnerable for the first time is a GREAT time to take a break, to put it quickly THE VOTE WAS SPLIT. With neither side budging despite my best efforts. After some investigative work I realized that outside of the fat five the brien vote was not widely wanted, and after taking myself out of the picture would have resulted in a 7-6 vote with Dylan leaving. So once i realized this and decided for myself that Dylan leaving was in fact the better move for my game, considering his challenge dominance and his close bonds to people who i considered my closest allies, he needed to be cut loose. In the final stretch before tribal I knew what was coming and what needed to be done so I had to lay the base work for what I was about to do which MEANT either flipping my alliance (fat five) or providing visible doubt within myself enough to prove that I was not LYING, I spoke to madeleine through most of this confessing concerns that we did not have the votes and perhaps it was best to just ride the dylan wave out as a unit like we had done up until that point, but there was no budging with her I expressed MULTIPLE concerns MULTIPLE times, and no movement. Then I went to jacob who was out of the loop as ever, he had no idea dylan was even an option and I told him that it was and it was likely to be the end result of the night with or without him, and I then tried to speak to andrew who was presumably at work but i really couldn't tell ya, I messaged him asking had he heard Dylans name at all, no response but the effort was there and I wasn't gonna call him just to give bad news, and lastly in the final moments I confessed to madeleine I "switched" my vote to Dylan to avoid a tie, which was true, and became my main selling point for WHY I did it which is fair, while there are revotes it's still half way to rocks and thats one hike i will NOT be taking, at least not this early and not over Dylan's ass lets make that clear. Then, the deed is done and the dust settles and im left to pick up the pieces of a devastated alliance, as I said i expose myself and admit to not wanting a tie and worrying for the safety of myself and ricky (who would've had a 50% chance of one of us going should it have gone to rocks) Im comforted by Madeleine and Ricky who understand the position I was in, Andrew was understandably and slightly upset but hey I DID try and talk to him, jacob pretty indifferent as always, I felt in the clear and I had nothing to do but move on. I will be doing the final 13 vote in a SEPARATE confessional, you're welcome  

BACK BACK BACK AGAIN, HALLELU! where were we? lets keep this going shall we, anyways SO FINAL 13, the challenge is remembering the cats trailer which I tried slightly after quite a long day at work so my brain wasn't fully there, I did do quite a bit of studying but my dumb ASS didn't think to remember the order of celebrities, or the featured names/works that were affiliated with the trailer, so I lost a lot of time in having to go back and watch those parts which scored me a mere 14 !! which was sadly not enough to win Immunity, instead Andrew and Stephen won! 1 person from each alliance, how poetic. The winners didn't really affect me or my gameplay this week it was quite a non factor. Which makes sense in a 14 person tribe, with now 12 people eligible to be voted out. The first half of the day was quite like every other vote, no names, no activity everyone waiting for the storm to flood in and sweep us away in the dark murky waters of tashirojima where somebody's gonna end up drowning. AND THEN IT HAPPENS!! suddenly there's names... LNGVO (Pat/Jo/Steve alliance) seems to be wary of Madeleine, who is quite the talker and a good social player considering her persistance with talking to people, it's impressive really. She won the social challenge by a landslide and that scared people and specifically scared Pat who threw her name out there first, pitching a pretty decent case in my opinion but Maddie trusts me so I don't really give into the pitch while Joanna agrees I subtly drop a message providing why her gameplay isn't all it's seemed to be and how she'll likely do herself in in due time, and we should probably just wait it out. While my tiny message likely had no impact Stephen did somewhat agree, he felt making another big move (was dylan that big of a move?) would set a domino effect into play and ultimately catch up to one of us which I agreed with. So while Pat and Joanna were still hung up on Maddie going home if at all possible we/they also recognized that her likability at this point in the game would make it hard to vote her out considering Jay/Timmy 2 MOTR players wouldn't write her name down was a game changer. So then the vote swapped to Jacob a less social and less likable player but also a key component to the unbeknownst to them alliance, the fat five, so I couldn't really have that happening BUT I did encourage the idea once it came up because while I wanted to pitch the idea of going Brien to this group but with the talk of "staying strong" as an "8" that voted together previously I knew it wouldn't be well received and I didn't want to risk looking sketchy that early in the day cause you never know how quick a vote can turn if given the right chance, so I sat back and agreed and made a small case for why jacob "SHOULD" be the vote and then they settled on Jacob because my assumptions were that if the vote was Jacob then Madison (who i assumed to be close to jacob) would not vote for him and would mean not necessarily a vote for the fat five but one less vote for LNGVO who by the mathematics of it, had the majority. BUT BOY WAS I WRONG, cause "we" settled on jacob and as it turns out LITTLE MISS MADISON said FUCK JACOB and voted for him !!! That was a shocker. But lets back up, before the votes were read I eventually brought up Brien's name AGAIN in the fat five, hoping we could stick on that, piss off less people and keep the sides more even so I don't give either side the upperhand WITHOUT needing little ol me, the middle position is only powerful if theres a middle to sit in. So if Brien went home I kept the balance, I appease the previously disappointed fat five and save the day with getting brien out just 1 round late. Without much fight they agree, it really does seem like the best decision so now I know where both sides are aiming I just need to figure out what their ammunition looks like. I knew where most of the votes were gonna be EXCEPT FOR Jay and Madison, both promised both sides their votes (which I know because I am somehow a part of both sides and thats why I hate my life) so without myself madison and Jay the votes looked like like 6-5 in the  LNGVO favor in eliminating Jacob, a close ally of mine, so now I had to secure 1 more vote to tip the scales in my favor, Jay had been on the fence all day from what he said, and so I went to talk to him like 10 minutes before tribal and he confessed to being on the fence and he told me while he promised his vote was going to go against jacob he didnt feel like he could follow through and i said SAME DUDE!!!! we're in the same boat, so i took this opportunity to relate and then make sure he felt confident in his decision because he was making it with me. And we locked on Brien, and he went on to later tell me that me agreeing with him and our conversation was the push he needed to lock that vote in, which im so grateful for. Now yet again I had to soften the blow to the side that I was voting against, while I knew Jay was flipping for about 20 minutes before I said anything (from 5:50 to about 6:10) I needed to find the perfect timing to tell LNGVO that I heard Jay was flipping and that Madison was also voting Brien (which wasn't true but I DID HEAR that she was from Madeleine and Andrew so I didn't lie) and with this I said I don't know if the votes are there anymore, and obviously Joanna not showing up until the last second was helpful too because that added to the sense of insecurity with that vote, and I also said I don't wanna vote Jacob if he's not gonna go home (again, true) and so with only 1 more person to be asked a question I dropped the bomb with little to no time to recover and have Stephen or Pat go and talk to jay to flip him back and no time to really figure out what was happening. Then the votes are read Brien goes home THANK U BABY JESUS and my plan worked out. Now I just need to continue to balance these 2 alliances as best as possible. In my next submission I will talk about the information and events that happened AFTER the votes were read. Thank you!

PART 3, THE FINALE, ARE YOU EXCITED? im excited, anyways. So Brien's gone hallelujah amen am i right. The LNGVO alliance seems understand when I express my concerns that the vote was too close to call and I couldn't really trust much of what anyone said like I mean come on, it was 7-6 for christs sake. They seem ok with it, understanding that this isn't the end of the world and theres still a bunch of game to be played and just hope to move forward stronger than before and hopefully still with the majority. And then I speak to Jay again, "baffled" at the fact that we were in the middle and the decision makers, making sure he knew it was both of our decision which leads him to propose that he would like to work with me, and I agree obviously! I really like Jay we share a love of pizza and pretzels and anything that combines pizza and pretzels. But also he's in the middle as well and he was another person to promise his vote one way and go back on it, similar to what I did, so I wont or shouldn't be taking heat alone which is always good. AND THEN the real kicker of the night, earlier on in the day I spoke to Stephen about hearing my name and not telling me, and gave him the chance to tell me his story, as vague as can be he tells me that it came up but wasn't truly considered, when asked specifically who said my name he dodged the question but did tell me it originated in a conversation with Madeleine, who I trusted and also didn't tell me about hearing my name but AFTER THE VOTE Maddie brought it up that Stephen in fact said my name on a call to HER not the other way around which jogged my memory and I confirmed and he in fact threw me out as an option for the vote, the same round he started an alliance with me! Ridiculous that guy. So now I know that Stephen has a thought in his mind that looks at me as a threat and someone that he ALREADY has considered targeting. While I initially felt bad having to let down LNGVO considering the alliance was created by Stephen I feel less bad now knowing that he is two-faced and is to not be trusted by me, despite how hard he wants to try and seem loyal to the alliance. People such as Andrew and Mad already see his sketchiness and the back and forth and I'm glad I want to capitalize on that and hopefully make something happen. But it's too soon to tell what I want to happen this round with 2 days for immunity and another for tribal really anything can happen and thats worrysome. but lets end on a positive note, Madeleine told me that I am her favorite person in this game and that she trusts me the most, which is AMAZING, she also brought up the idea of forming a final three of myself, her and Andrew to which I obviously agreed to but I think she may not know that Andrew has a pre-existing relationship to Ricky, and I have a pre-existing relationship to Jacob and Jacob and Ricky ALSO know each other well. But that may not even come into play but it's important to note that I am now officially a part of someones end game (for the time being) this is huge and I hope to become a part of more peoples end games as the game progresses. Good Luck Charlie!

I was scared I wasn’t coming across how I wanted to be in this season, turns out I am and I’m so freaking happy!!!

I was think about the challenge in class and looked at my coffee and my mind just screamed “Starbucks cat!” And then “MADDIE NO”

Madeleine is totally a backstabber but that's okay. I already knew that since tribal 2. I think I'm gonna switch to vote her off only bc now I have Jay and Pat talking to me. Thank gods Brien got voted off. He never talked to me besides setting up the alliance. I favor people who talk over people who doesn't so that's one less inactive person. I"M SO GLAD THAT THIS CHALLENGE IS AN ARTISTIC ONE. I can not wait to see how people react to what I drew. I think its hella nice. Even if I get voted off after this challenge, that's perfectly fine and I'm okay with that since this is my pride and joy of the season. Plus I won't be gone gone since we're all jurors anyways. It'll just be lonely for a few days until the next juror gets voted out. Or multiple. Lukas and Olivia seems to be hinting at more than one person can be voted out and idk man. Scary business right there

So this is how I'm pretty sure the votes went last time? - Andrew, Maddie, Ricky, Kevin, Jacob, Jay, Madison: voted out Brien - Stephen, Timmy, Vi, Joanna, Pat, Brien: voted out Jacob Unless I'm a buffoon......but I think Madison was the swing vote. I think. Idk. I had to convince Jay very very very very very VERY last second and then at the same time get people to convince Madison while I was also trying to talk to her. I wouldn't have been so adamant about NOT voting out Jacob had Stephen not been sketchy as all hell coming to me at like 8:30 being like "teehee wut if we did jacob uwu" cuz that was fucking stupid. He was like "well why does Jacob deserve to stay over Brien" and I was like why the fuck are you all of a sudden trying to keep Brien? For numbers? Yeah no. No Brien for you. He's gone now. So Stephen is high on my hit list. Also I just like do not have a connection to Vi, Timmy, Pat, and Joanna and like I've talked to Vi and Joanna but the convos are stale. I guess I can try messaging Pat. I might look like a doofus messaging Timmy this late in the game especially when I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me but I think I've decided I don't give a shit about social graces and might just message him anyway for funsies. The key word is might. For this vote though.......Maddie, Ricky, and Jacob are all vulnerable. Like at least Maddie puts in work but if I have to keep dragging Ricky and Jacob's lagging asses I'm gonna lose it. I'm love Ricky so much but like......please. Do smth.... I'm gonna break my back from carrying this alliance. Jay is also vulnerable btw. So that's 4 people I don't wanna target. Then there is Timmy and Madison. Will Madison vote out Timmy? Idk. That could be an issue. Because if she doesn't then I think it could end up being 6-6. Nnnnnn. So like if it's 6-6 that's gay because if it deadlocked then Timmy and whoever the other side voted would be safe. So like it would be a 1-4 chance that Madison goes over one of my allies. We need people to vote out Timmy. This is GAY. Or maybe we just scrap Jacob because he's useless. Who fuckin knows.

*spongebob timecard narrator voice* the next day: So apparently Madison voted Jacob? And Timmy voted Brien? I'm confused but idc lol maybe we can just get majority on Madison then

These people are so messy. So Jacob left my alliance with him and Madison but I’m messaging him (or at least trying to, he’s responding slowly but I think he’s at work so it’s all good) because I need him to know I didn’t vote for him. Madison did though and now I know she also voted Dylan and she thought I did too. I still want Madison in but like I don’t want to go to the end with her mainly bc I know she would be more likely than others to vote for me in the end. There’s plenty of reasons to get Madeleine out but she’s not winning immunities so the opportunity will be better with less people and these people are smart and will see that she is a social threat but yea she is easy to beat in immunity (although I haven’t been doing too well in immunities). I want Ricky gone bc I fucked up and never answered his message from a while ago so that is a dead relationship so he can go. Also I want Joanna gone sooner rather than later because I know she is smart.

so, gag of all gags, everyone in my core alliance is immune, woo. This means we dont have to be worried about a massive blindside, the only true ally i have thats vulnerable is Madison, but it seems the vote is aiming more at ricky, thank god. I like the guy but hes just one of the less-active people and I want to make sure we dont have an ftc full of goats who just drifted through. Kevin is the only one of my alliance im wary of, he has done great in challenges so far, and that can be dangerous the closer you get to FIC, so eventually he will lose immunity and ill have to betray him. Make it to f8, then the next time he loses hes gone.

https://youtu.be/qHZhhQIvOcU

CASUALTIES:

CAST ASSESSMENTS:

PART 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BF-qsugZ6RM&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=14

PART 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF6SrpCKBrA&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=15

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Hi! What are some other reasons you dont like thirteen reasons why? People tell me to watch it but idk im not really sure? Id love to hear the other side too. (Love your blog btw)

Hi! Thank you! I’ve gotten a few of these in my ask box so I’m officially answering this one, but it’s for everyone else who asked too. There’s a lot of anger in here but it’s not directed at you anon! Just the book. (Please keep in mind I have not watched the show, nor do I intend to, so most of these are based on the book. This will also contain spoilers.)

1) Hannah Baker is a selfish hateful bitch. I really hate the B word, but honestly, I dont know what else to say. All suicides are selfish honestly, but she killed herself out of straight spite. She even says that its for revenge. Yes, there were some god awful things that happened, but she destroyed her family, her future, and honestly herself just so she could get back at the people that hurt her. Pathetic. I had a friend who’s client killed themselves, and they were devastated. It wasn’t even a person in their family and they couldn’t get out of bed for weeks. I could never imagine butting my family through that just to get revenge, and make people feel bad for fucking me over. 2) Basing off that, Hannah blames everyone for her suicide except for her own damn self.  Every single one of the issues she talked about sucked, but they could have been solved in so many ways other that suicide (again, I can not believe someone would do that to their family and friends.). If she talked to the people, or went to a real counselor, or did fucking online schooling whatever, she could have avoided it. There so many options she could have taken to better her self, but she allowed what people had done to her to control her. She uses the tapes to show how other people caused her suicide, but her hand was always the one on the trigger. 3) Blame of other people brings me to my next point, which is basically the same as number two only more specific to the School Counselor. I honestly cant remember his name right now, Mr Porter?  I have no clue so Ill just call him SC. This poor dude. He’s just a school counselor, but suddenly he’s the most responsible for her death? She says on that tapes that he’s the only person standing between her and suicide. What kind of god awful burden to put on somebody?? Who fucking does that?? Tells someone they’re the only thing stopping them from killing themselves?? Gross people that’s who. And the real kicker is, she didn’t even tell him. She didn’t even tell him half of the whole story. She said there was sexual things that happened with a guy, didn’t tell him if it was rape or not, and when he offered solutions, she wasn’t open to them. The poor dude did his best, but when who you’re talking too won’t help themselves, there’s really nothing more you can say. He told her to move on, because she wouldn’t press charges or even talk about what happened, and she twisted his words into inspiration to kill herself. And in the book, they talk about how horrible he is for that!!! She tells him he can take the tapes to hell, Clay calls him awful or something. He did his best with what she told him!! And even then, it is not his responsibility to make sure she doesn’t kill herself. Yes, counselors should help, but saying he was the one thing standing between her and her death is???? Crazy??4) This takes me to my next point. Clay. Clay Clay Clay. This whole time, shes talking about people who wronged her, and Clay is wondering how he got on the list. So when it gets to his tape, I’m like “Okay cool maybe the Author will explore the grey areas in this book, and how even good people can do bad things, or about how people you expect to be good can really fuck up, accidentally or on purpose, or fuck maybe it’ll only be a little thing and the author can use it to show how even small actions can impact a person (I wouldn’t say to a point of SUICIDE, but just show the impacts)” but then the tape comes on and its “Clay you don’t deserve to be on this list. You’re the odd one out”. How, fucking, convenient. Our Hero Clay Jensen, who didn’t do anything wrong!! He is exempt from all of her hate so we can have a likable main character. Wonderful. I rolled my eyes his entire chapter. 5) OH Also! talking about Clay’s tape, let’s also talk about (again), Hannah’s absolute fuckery when it comes to dealing with her problems. Literally pushes away anyone who could help her. She doesn’t even want to be helped, and at this point, shes going to twist every damn thing someone says to fit her own self justifying agenda. She says people caused her suicide, but she caused it her self by allowing it to happen. She didn’t help herself, even when she could, and wont take responsibility. Also, she fucking traumatized this poor boy for the rest of his life by making him listen to all the awful things on a set of tapes “he didn’t belong on”. Fuck off Hannah Baker. 6) The book is plain unrealistic. This is less of a character thing and more of something I noticed the second time i read it and it just made me hate it more. First off, literally no one does that shit. No one gives a fuck in high school. if someone cares enough to tell everyone that Justin felt up Hannah on the playground, no one is gonna care enough to believe it. When was the last time you heard a rumor about a girl getting felt up and went  “ wow this must be true what a slut I hate her”. It’s also unrealistic in the sense of the way it portrays depression, which is very poorly and Ill get to that more later. When I’m depressed I can’t even get out of bed, much less orchestrate an entire guilt trip with cassette tapes. Also the fact that Clay knows every single person on those tapes and their backstories despite having very different social groups as them? I’m not buying it. 7) It’s portrayal of depression and suicide. It makes it seem like its this beautifully sad pain. No. False. depression is like,  not getting out of bed because you’re physically unable too. It’s not taking a shower for weeks. It’s crying at two AM for no fucking reason. Miss me with this “I began to see the beauty in giving up” bullshit. You want to show suicide? Show what really happens. the wreckage people leave behind. Jay Ashter or whatever his name is goes into it a little bit when he’s talking about how her parents left for weeks and how the school counselor looked when he found out, but thats about it. Mainly it talks bout why she killed herself and how other people caused it, but not a realistic version of what the aftermath actually entailed. People, especially young people,  might look at this without knowing the true consequences of suicide or impacts of depression and get the wrong idea; namely they killing yourself is a revenge tactic to make everyone see how right you are and feel bad about what they did. Depression isn’t romantic emptiness and suicide isn’t a way to get revenge. It’s a serious issue and it just felt so… empty.8) While I’m not 100% sure, I’ve heard that not only does the Netflix series show the suicide, but also a really long rape scene. Can anyone say Yikes. Lets create a show about mental health and things that cause it,and then not give a fuck how said show will impact viewer’s triggers and mental health. There’s more but this post is already long as hell so I’ll end it here. I’m not the best writer, so there are some concepts that may have gotten muddled and not thoroughly explained, So i apologize for any misunderstandings someone gets if my words aren’t clear enough. I think you get the concept though.